(Hercanberra.com) Jacky Sutton: A Life - a profile on British journalist found dead at Istanbul Airport

From: Biniam Tekle <biniamt_at_dehai.org_at_dehai.org>
Date: Mon, 19 Oct 2015 10:42:01 -0400

"I spent five years in Eritrea, from 1993 to 1998. I went to BBC and
the Economist in London and secured contracts from them to write the
quarterly reports and send regular stories. I also helped to set up
the Eritrea Profile, the government English language newspaper,
working with an inspirational ex-fighter called Abenet Essayas'


http://hercanberra.com.au/cppeople/jacky-sutton-a-life/

19 OCTOBER 2015

Jacky Sutton: A Life

AMANDA WHITLEY

I met Jacky Sutton in the summer of 2013 at a table outside Ricardo’s
in Jamison: such an unassuming location for a meeting with a woman I
would soon discover was quite extraordinary. I spent several hours
with her that first time—far longer than planned—but she was utterly
fascinating and I could have listened to her all day.

Jacky had found herself in Canberra on a skilled migrant visa after
almost 20 years with the UN in war zones like Eritrea, Iraq and
Afghanistan. Formerly a journalist with Vatican Radio and the BBC, the
international development expert’s arrival in Australia was somewhat
ill-timed, coinciding with the closure of AUSAID. Never comfortable
with sitting still, she joined the committee of the ACT Vegan and
Vegetarian Society, and volunteered to help with marketing for the
fitness club she joined and dog walking for the pound. She was also
itching to write…and that’s where HerCanberra came in.

She was a gifted writer, a born storyteller—someone whose words you
could get lost in. In late 2014, I asked her if I could video a
conversation with her to share on the website…and she agreed,
providing a detailed account of her life so far for print and film…but
the final product was never published, as she headed back to the
frontlines and ‘went dark’ on social media. We touched base from time
to time, and I loved that we remained connected even though we were
worlds apart. In our last conversation, she said she’d be home in the
New Year, and I said how much I was looking forward to seeing her.

We won’t meet again. Jacky was found dead at Istanbul’s Atatürk
International Airport on the weekend and my heart breaks at the
thought that this intelligent, passionate, driven woman is no longer
of this world. Her words, however, will live on…so there’s perhaps no
better tribute than letting Jacky share her own incredible story. This
is her life, in her words.

I was born Jacqueline but became Jackie at six when I realised that
the only time I heard “Jacqueline” was when I was in trouble. At eight
years old I saw a copy of “Jackie” magazine and was enraged that this
rubbish had usurped my name. I remember coming back from the High
Street clutching my new birthday bag (denim with flowers of course),
containing the change from my birthday money and a Beano comic and
saying to mum “from now on my name is Jacky with a “y”. It took many
years for Angela Robbie to identify the impact of Jackie magazine on
British girls of the 70s – I certainly didn’t realise that I was doing
anything emancipatory or feminist by rejecting “ie” for “y”. I just
knew that lipstick and drooling over people like David Soul were not
how I wanted my life to be.

As a child I didn’t really have any aspirations. Vet, perhaps, but my
eldest sister had already claimed that role (she is a child
psychologist in Holland). Soldier? I wasn’t a boy and girls weren’t
allowed to think like that back then. Pilot? Ditto. I do remember
telling my best friend that I couldn’t wait to be 40 because by that
time I would have gone to university, got married, had two children
(Oliver and Charlotte) and have been able to eat chocolate all day and
got fat because by then my role in society would have been over (yes,
the last 10 words were ironic contemporary editorializing). Actor?
Everyone told me that I needed to go to university and that you
couldn’t have an acting career and a degree. I still shudder to
realise that marital rape was not a criminal offence until 1991 in the
UK and that despite the middle class privileges to which I had access,
gender equality in the UK was still a distant dream. Journalist? Mmmm
– the parameters of that had not been set, and comments on Angela
Rippon’s.

I was born in Hertfordshire in an estate built on the former grounds
of Hatfield House, which was the childhood exile of Queen Elizabeth I.
As estate residents we were given free run of the grounds of the
house, and this was a weekend treat. In the summer we would pick
blackberries and in the winter dare each other to tread on the frozen
lakes. My mother’s ashes are scattered across Hatfield House park; my
father’s ashes were inadvertently stolen from my sister’s house in
London but in principle he should also be there.

We moved to next door to Essex when I was seven, to the picturesque
town of Maldon. This was a new world for me. The streets were narrow,
the people spoke really strangely and the water tasted foul. My
parents had bought a school because they realised that dad’s job as a
sales manager for ICI and mum’s isolation as a mother of four and with
post-natal depression were destroying their marriage. I loved being in
Maldon and this huge, old house we lived in had many mysteries (like a
skull named Alice) and a swimming pool. My parents, for some reason,
decided that only my brother Ian should go to Maldon Court, and the
three girls should go to the local state primary, All Saints, where we
were derided for our posh accents. I spent the first few weeks not
knowing what people were saying. After a term my parents took us out
of that school and we all went to Maldon Court until Ian went to
boarding school at eight years old and kind of disappeared from my
life.

One day a parent who owned a large sheep farm turned up at school with
three kittens whose mum had been killed by a fox and we adopted the
one that no one else wanted. And a few months later my parents agreed
to get a dog and we took the runt of a pedigree litter who was going
to be killed because his head was too pointy. Tigger the Cat and
Charlie the Dog joined our lives and they were very big influences on
me – learning to interact with another species and seeing that they
share so many emotions with us and are just as intelligent.

At 11 I was accepted to Colchester County High School for Girls. My
two sisters went to the local comprehensive school. In those days
pupils were segregated according to ability and I was in the “A”
stream. It’s a horrible system because it fosters elitism and a sense
that intelligence is the only identity marker that matters.

I hated my school. I hated the silly restrictions and the
interdictions. I was very good at maths as a child (my dad taught
maths) but by the time I was 13 I “hated” maths and was told that as a
“Div 4” maths student (out of four divisions) I was not allowed to
learn computers but condemned to “Home Economics” – cooking and
sewing. Which, needless to say, I flunked.

By the time I was 16 I was miserable inside. I was the only child at
home and my mum had decided to come off the valium that she had been
prescribed after my brother was born. I had no one to talk to as my
school friends were in Colchester so going round to their houses
involved cars and buses so I would go for long long walks with Charlie
or I would read. I went to boarding school for my final two years of
school – it was a vegetarian boarding school and I loved it. It
attracted a very odd mix of people – from John Cleese’s daughter to
Iranian and Iraqi exiles. There I became very much involved in theatre
along with Tanya Webster, whose little brother Jason would also tag
along.

I particularly loved Shakespeare – still do – and read every single
one of his plays. I went to Warwick University, which is now renowned
for its business park but then was one of the hubs of literary studies
and was just a few miles from Stratford on Avon. I studied English and
American literature and Spanish (Arabic was not an option, which I
regret now). During one of my classes I asked why most of the authors
we were reading were white males and why we didn’t have any Canadian
authors or Native Americans (I used the term Indians at the time). I
was told that there weren’t any good Canadian authors and that Indians
didn’t write. That spurred me to go and research Canada and I found an
organization called Frontiers Foundation that had volunteer
opportunities to go and work in Native Canadian communities.

I applied and weeks later I got a letter saying that I had been
accepted and that I should come to Toronto. I had graduated with a
First Class degree (my Shakespeare paper received the highest mark
nationally and members of the Cambridge exam board came to
congratulate me) and had worked in bars and shops during my university
so had the 400 pounds necessary to fly off. My parents let me – I
think they were a bit surprised. I arrived in Toronto airport and
there was no one there to meet me. I had the address and saw that
there was a tube map with a stop on Danforth Avenue so headed off. I
was still thinking like a Brit, however, with my tiny island
proportions. I didn’t think that any road could be so long. Eventually
I came to a Native Friendship Centre and went in and asked for
Frontiers Foundation. They didn’t seem surprised and rang up someone
who came to pick me up. I stayed in his basement in Toronto’s Cabbage
Town, and the next morning was put on a train to Wabigoon, a
non-status Native community (non-status Indians are those whose
ancestors did not sign a treaty with the British and are therefore
considered wards of the provincial rather than federal government).

I spent two years in Canada – magical time. Went on long walks with
the husky/wolf mixes, snow shoed, built houses, sweat lodges, the
tremendous power of the female elders .. Long discussions with people
about communism, the Miners’ Strike, individual versus communal
rights.

I came back to the UK in time for the birth of my first nephew in 1989
and got a scholarship to do an MA in London. I studied constitutional
law and wrote my thesis on Native Canadian land rights. It was an
exciting time to be doing this as the Meech Lake discussions were
ongoing to recognise Native People as a distinctive constitutional
entity alongside the English and the French. I got another scholarship
that allowed me to go to James Bay to meet the Cree people who had
started one of the most momentous revolutions for land rights that led
to the confrontations at Kanasetake, Quebec. I got a distinction for
the MA and was thinking of going into constitutional law as a
profession, but then got involved in the anti-apartheid movement in
the UK, specifically the City of London Anti-Apartheid Group and
worked for the Angolan Embassy. I remember hearing that Saddam Hussein
had invaded Kuwait on the radio but I didn’t think much about it
because South Africa was losing its war against sanctions.

By this time I was also involved with a man, author and journalist
Michael Griffin, who encouraged me to write. We both got contracts
with the UN International Fund for Agricultural Development and while
in Rome I also wrote for the American Magazine and got a contract with
Vatican Radio. I was the English language news presenter for a year,
and then I was told that if I wanted a permanent contract I would have
to convert to Roman Catholicism by my Jesuit supervisor, Father Anton.
I explained as an atheist I couldn’t convert to any religion and while
saying I believed was a technicality for me, it was an insult to those
who did believe. I had seen in Native Canada how important religion is
and while it played no role in my life, it was too important for
others to disrespect. Michael and I broke up in Rome and he went back
to London. I meanwhile had become friends with an Eritrean producer at
Vatican Radio (the Eritreans are majority Christian and managed to
finagle funding from the Vatican, Saddam Hussein and protestant
missionaries for their revolution). Tewelde challenged me to go to
Eritrea and disprove my Leninist theories of secession. So I did.

I spent five years in Eritrea, from 1993 to 1998. I went to BBC and
the Economist in London and secured contracts from them to write the
quarterly reports and send regular stories. I also helped to set up
the Eritrea Profile, the government English language newspaper,
working with an inspirational ex-fighter called Abenet Essayas, whose
father had been one of the generals killed by Mengistu Heile Mariam in
his coup. Abenet had left her middle class life in Addis to join the
EPLF as a radio announcer.

Eritrea was another life changing experience. In 1995 Essayas
Afewerki’s authoritarianism was beginning to take its toll on civil
society – he was a brilliant guerilla leader but not so good at
inclusive democracy. I was detained as a spy and deported and many
people fled the country. I got an ESRC scholarship to do a PhD at
Leeds University, but my mother had been diagnosed with breast cancer,
and I think I had PTSD from the detention so I was unable to cope. Now
there would be counseling, but back then I was given Prozac and told
to soldier on. I took Prozac for a month, but it had some seriously
weird side effects so I stopped. I heard from some Eritreans that my
case was being used in Asmara and Addis to undermine the government. I
decided to go back to Asmara to clear things up, and was welcomed back
by the then foreign minister and the ministry of fisheries. The mayor
of massawa asked me to go to Massawa and work with him, and I set up a
library there. While working there I met my husband, Charles, who was
working for NCIS and sailed into Massawa.

I stayed for two years in Massawa, but it was difficult to communicate
with my family and it was clear that my mother was dying. So I
returned again to the UK and found work with the BBC World Service in
London and contracts with UNHCR in Yugoslavia, the World
Meteorological Organisation (where there is a large picture of my
grandfather, Sir Oliver Sutton, on the wall!) and IFAD in between.

Mum died in July 1998. Charles and I got married in August 2000 but we
divorced four years later. We separated a year earlier – the invasion
of Iraq was a huge issue as I was opposed and he was pro. Dad died
suddenly in February 2004 – he had never got over mum’s death and
drank himself to death. His liver collapsed and my brother found him
dead in a pool of blood.

I was working at the UN Food and Agricultural Organisation by then and
had been sent to Afghanistan to set up their information office. I was
then offered a job by UNESCO in Iran, which covered Afghanistan, Iran,
Pakistan and Turkmenistan and arrived in Tehran in 2005, a week after
Ahmadinejad took office. As a British ex-BBC journalist I was of great
interest to the Iranian authorities, but I loved my work and was voted
as the best international trainer by the Islamic Republic of Iran
broadcasting in 2006. Late 2006 a British friend of mine in Kabul was
handed over to the Afghan authorities on charges of trying to murder a
Muslim. He had uncovered corruption involving UN officials which had
resulted in the death of three Afghan children and I knew that they
were trying to cover this up. I managed to get him out of prison and
out of the country, but in the process the Afghan authorities tried to
arrest me and put me in prison in his stead. So I was evacuated from
the country – luckily I had two days notice and managed to get my cat,
Genghis, smuggled out of the country across the Khyber Pass to
Islamabad and she was put on a plane to Ghana, to where I had been
transferred.

Genghis joined me in Ghana and the airport officials couldn’t believe
that I had paid for this one eyed, no-toothed, raggy eared tabby to
come all the way to be with me. But she had stuck with me during my
troubles and I wasn’t going to leave her to die an agonizing death by
starvation. She lived with me for another five years before I had her
euthanized in Baghdad because she had cancer.

I lasted 7 months in Ghana, where I was the UNESCO regional advisor
for Ghana, Cote d’Ivoire, Benin, Togo, Nigeria, Sierra Leone and
Liberia. I resigned to work for UNDP in Iraq – lots of reasons but
mainly the director of the UNESCO Ghana regional office was mad,
racist and corrupt and I was bored. I started an LLM in International
Information Technology Law because I had time on my hands!

UNDP Iraq was fantastic. I worked with the election commission and
journalists and we did some great things. But being in the Green Zone
was really frustrating and working in Gaza (where I was sent for three
months to help out after Operation Cast Lead) changed me again. During
this time, in the middle of a sandstorm and while being bullied by my
supervisor I applied for permanent resident status in Australia. The
process of getting the documentation was so time consuming it helped
me through the many “white cities” (lock downs). We had mortars coming
in to the compound a lot, and I remember being on the phone to a
friend in Baghdad when one hit the compound, killing two people and
injuring 11. And being in the Rashid Hotel when the Ministry of
Foreign Affairs next door was hit by a massive truck bomb. We were in
a small room and I got everyone to barricade the door and turn off the
lights because every window in the hotel was smashed, there was dust
everywhere and soldiers, or perhaps terrorists it wasn’t clear, were
running around shooting everyone. We kept very quiet and then when
things were calmer rushed out to where our colleagues from the UN
security were waiting.

I was head hunted by IREX to be the country director of their
programme and spent two years outside the Green Zone in Iraq. Bombings
were becoming more frequent and my staff had several lucky escapes –
one was late because the cab driver had to clean the body parts of the
windshield. One night there was a huge explosion next door and small
arms fire and my bodyguards came to wake me to leave – we always had
grab bags ready. I got up, brushed my teeth and went back to sleep –
this was my reflex action by then because when death is so near and so
unexpected there is no use in getting worried by it.

I got my permanent resident visa in April 2011 and had to come to
Canberra before December. I had to live two years in ACT so flew in on
Melbourne Cup day 2011 on the end of a holiday to New Zealand to see
my aunt and her family. I have a large family in NZ. The first of my
family came over in 1841 and set up a homestead in the Kaituna Valley
outside Christchurch. The house is still there, and the church with my
family buried. It is a beautiful place. My aunt came out in 1961 as a
young bride from Edinburgh – it was two or three weeks on a ship. She
came to the UK with her two children in 1976 and I can remember being
so jealous that they had Christmas dinner on the beach!

The IREX programme was funded by the US government and in 2012 there
was no more money for an international staff in Baghdad. I got a job
with the International Foundation for Electoral Systems, IFES, in Iraq
and worked again with the election commission. I had wanted to set up
in Australia but my nephew had a serious illness that required
specialist treatment that my sister could not afford, so I stayed on
to help with the bills. In addition my brother and his wife had
finally had a baby (it was a difficult birth and Olivia required
emergency care but she is fine and a future world leader now) and my
brother had given up a very lucrative career as a chef so he could
spend time with his family. He has never forgiven my parents for
sending him away at eight and spends all the time he can with his wife
and daughter.

My first weeks here were terrifying. I hadn’t been on a bus for ages,
or on a bike. There were thunderstorms and I often woke up thinking I
was back in Baghdad with the bomb blasts. But I was also worried about
employment as I knew absolutely no one.

I did a RedR course and that was great – one of the scenarios involves
situations that were completely normal to me (I won’t go into details
because we have been asked not to) and I felt quite at home. I also
got a scholarship at ANU to do a PhD and a part time contract working
for the Australian National Committee for UN Women (that contract is
now over at the end of this month). I have done one year out of the
mandatory two years for the permanent residency requirement and will
be going off to Baghdad and Kabul next year – possibly Kabul at the
end of this month. I am also a member of Vegan ACT, and this is
important to me. I see animal rights as the next great struggle, along
with disability and gender rights. This might insult some people but I
don’t see the three as inseparable – how society treats its most
marginalised is an important indicator and brutality in the
slaughterhouse is reflected in brutality in the home.

THAT WASN’T THE END OF JACKY’S STORY. SHE SENT ME AN EMAIL FROM ERBIL IN JUNE.

Hi from Erbil, where it is hot, dusty and seems a world away from
front lines. Having said that, I visited an IDP camp yesterday filled
with people from Mosul and Beiji in the north; we run the “Iraqi
Network for Youth for Peace” to try to help young people tell their
stories. It was heartbreaking – and this is one of the better, smaller
camps. It really brings it home to you when a sophisticated,
cosmopolitan city like Mosul ends up being an abattoir. And this is a
vegan talking …

The economy is definitely suffering here, which may not be a bad thing
in retrospect were it not for the glaring and growing disparity in
wealth. The Diwan hotel is still offering USD250 Iftar buffets and a
spa and gym club. Exxon has taken over the top two floors and there
are Cartier watches and lotsa bling (serious bling, with emeralds and
rubies) in the foyer. Meanwhile some mothers and babies have managed
to defy the Peshmerga and are selling single pieces of chewing gum at
the traffic lights.

On the plus side, if there was one, the mad, rampant construction has
slowed down, in some places stopped entirely. There are skeletal high
rises with tarps forlornly flapping in the dust – these were housing
displaced people but they have all been moved to the camps.

I’m in a hotel at the moment – a low key one with hardly any guests.
The accommodation that had been prepared was basically one room and a
bathroom above the office with only one door in and out, and that off
the street. So if someone came in uninvited I was trapped and, as my
Kurdish friends said, “It just needs one whacko to hear in the Friday
prayers that killing foreigners is jihad, and they’ll come knocking at
your door in a heartbeat.” Erbil has grown but everyone knows where
the foreigners are staying. So I am going to stay in the hotel until
next week when I will move in with some Kurdish friends who live in a
gated community. If Daesh wants to attack they will but it will take
planning and I won’t be THE target; if the whacko wants to get to
heaven he or she will have to contend with armed guards and a choice
of targets, and the same with criminal kidnappers – a growth industry
in Iraq.

It’s great to be back here and my friends in both Baghdad and Erbil
have been calling me pretty much non-stop.

I won’t be posting on FB too much because there is no point in drawing
attention to myself and my colleagues, but I will be keeping a diary
and would love to write something for you once I get back to
Australia. Ideally I’d like to do a “postcard from Erbil” but you
never know who is reading HC …

Sadly, that postcard from Erbil will never eventuate, and if Jacky’s
friends’ beliefs about the circumstances surrounding her death are
true, her concerns about not sharing her location on social media were
very valid.

Vale Jacky, I will miss you…but I will always have your words to comfort me.

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Amanda Whitley

Amanda Whitley is the founder and director of HerCanberra. In her
'spare time', she instructs zumba, loves to cook (and eat), and
wrangles two gorgeous little girls. She's done everything from present
the tv news to operate a stop and go sign and is passionate about
connecting Canberra women. More about the Author
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